Life was simple, Yesterday

I feel a little more relaxed now.

It’s been pretty hectic lately.

I haven’t felt like me in awhile.

My life has changed so drastically and the future scares me.

Do I have what it takes to succeed?

Thoughts just lingering.

My mind going crazy and I am left feeling empty.

Life was simple, yesterday.

But today I am determined to make the best of it.


Letter To A Friend

Dear friend;

I began this letter awhile ago. Unsure on what to write and afraid to sound cheesy because you deserve better than dorky words. But at this point I’m just writing allowing my brain to dictate my next word. So here it goes:

I might of mention here and there my dislike for humans. I try so hard to hate them but sincerely I easily fall in love with them. I hate that I love them. I hate that I don’t know how to love them; How to love them properly. With that said … Can I love you? Because I already do.

You are hard work and sweat as well as pillows and video games.

Mostly rainy days but also every season. Snow, thunder, hail and rain.

You are the perfect combination of sweet and salty.

Ben & Jerry’s salted caramel core.

“The most beautiful people you’ll ever meet aren’t always the ones who catch your eye first. No, the most beautiful people are the ones that can never be figured out. The ones you could talk with for hours and still have millions of things to ask. The people who have minds so lovely and special, you can’t help but fall in love with them.” -via (Quotes ‘nd Notes)

You came into my life when my world was a bit chaotic. I am very grateful for your friendship during that chapter of my life. I am aware that I’m crazy and I was conscious that you knew too. You took me in even with my stupid decisions. While I know that you did judge me you did it silently. I am grateful.

However, now that we are miles apart we will begin to slowly drift apart. And while I’m trying so hard to hold on to the most precious things that come my way I also understand that sometimes I have to let go. But, regardless of the time passed and the time that is to pass I know that my feelings will always remain the same.

-Love, Jasmin

My Heaven

Afraid that everything is over now.

How stupid of me, you made me your laughing stock.

I close my eyes and I can still feel the taste of your lips.

I hate how much I want them.

But I’ll make sure I never have them.

Like the poor possessing a winning lottery ticket.

Unable to make a wise decision on how to spend it.

A high so blind it leaves him broken.

His heart in such rush he does the unspoken.

My luscious hormones like his heart beat.

And you my dear, my winning lottery ticket.

In all, it’s just a tragedy.

He was, he is, he ought to be my kingdom, my heaven.

You, just the earth, perhaps my world.

Why would such fool choose the world over heaven?

Maybe I am a fool.

Or he might not be my heaven.

And this…

A game of hide and seek.

I have found the ultimate hiding place in him.

I’ve been hiding for hours, for years.

No one seems to find me.

A myriad of souls have come close but lose interest in seeking for more.

I didn’t much mind, for complacent I was with the illusion of heaven.

But then I met earth,

And my mouth was left throbbing for more.

And now my delusional brain settles for earth and rejects heaven.